Cookies of the Soul - Chocolate Cream Kisses and a insight
Her connection with him was in trouble and she knew it. She had convinced herself for a long time that the important part was that she knew it. Today was the day she knew for sure that she had to fix it. Denying to herself that his situation was serious was easy to do, until she heard her Mom on the phone speaking to her some what doubtful brother, "Do you precisely know how serious this is? No, I mean how precisely seriously ill he is." Her mom does not jump to conclusions and, therefore; when she says something like that she means it. |
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Had it only been eleven years since he had married Mom? Ten years since he taught her how a real father treats his children whether or not they are precisely his. Nine years since, well, since the chocolate cream kisses. She was fourteen years old. It was those ridiculous diminutive chocolate cookie sandwiches with cream on the inside. She was fanatic about them. It seemed like she was always eating them. She remembered him sitting in his chair watching the Tv, his usual happiness and content. When she went to kiss him, Mom started laughing. She pointed out that he had a pair of chocolate lips on his cheek. That's when her kisses were dubbed chocolate cream kisses. To about two months ago he always said before she went to bed "Jenny, give me one of those chocolate cream kisses." whether or not she had chocolate on her lips, that's what they were called. She privately had loved it. He was in too much pain to think on it now. Jenny shook herself out of her daydream and back on her bed behind her locked door. She touched her face and it was wet. It had been a long time since she had felt them. Once upon a time they had a great relationship. It was full of laughter and friendship. Both in enterprise and personal lives. When the enterprise went down he automatically assumed that Jenny resented him for the inability to make the enterprise fly and for all the money she had invested into the business. Shortly thereafter Jenny resented him for mental so and she was too introverted to do anything about it. Then he got sick. Shortly after she moved back into the house due to her recent bankruptcy and that's when his condition got out of control. It started with his diabetes causing severe mood swings and his depression on top of it. That, the family was able to work their way through on uneven ground. Then came the leg wounds. They were four inches long on each leg and breeding infection. To see a strong private cry all day is a humbling palpate full of sadness and fear. Not being able to salvage that someone from all the pain they are feeling. Then the wall came up. That wall that is solid and large looming in the middle of her and love. She was protecting herself from the chance that she was losing someone she loved. Jenny figured if you don't love them so much then when they die it won't hurt so much. That's when their trickle of conversation became dry, there was nothing to talk about anymore. Empty and void except for the silent anger that wondered why hw wouldn't take care of himself? Why didn't he think of the population he might leave behind when eating those large plates of heaping food? There are times when she remembered that his food was an addiction and there was times when she forgot. Today the anger vanished. Exactly fifteen minutes ago to be exact, that is when Mom said Dad was going to the crisis room. The pain was becoming unbearable to him. While every brick of that wall told her she shouldn't, she went to talk to him. His face was gray, lying on that couch with bandages wrapped around his legs. When Jenny brought her fear into the room he opened his eyes slightly. Likely Page Break"Hey Jenny," he said as he smiled weakly up at her. "Hey Dad, I heard you decided to go to the crisis room." "Yeah, Sweetheart, it just hurts too much now." "Dad, I want you to know something before you...." "He starred up at her, " I know you Jenny. You don't have to say it, but knowing you, I also do know that you need to say it. Go on." "I'm sorry for how stiff I've been. I love you so much. I just don't want to lose you. You're my dad whether or not I was born that way. You can't die, you have to live, just like Mom lived. There are all those things we have to do together. The Disney Cruise and that trip we all were going to take....." Tears were flowing and they weren't about to stop. She decided that they never were going to stop. They were just going to keep going until the whole house flooded. She had to get herself under control. If she can't operate this then she can't operate anything in her life. "Jenny. It's okay. I love you and I'm not going anywhere. You and me, we're okay. Here give me one of those chocolate cream kisses." After she did he moderately got up to leave. "I'll see you when I get back." His strength came back for a minute. That Viking strength that Jenny and Mom talked about all the time. whether or not they had said anything properly it was ultimately understood and the wall crumbled in the middle of them. "Chocolate Cream Kisses"* Ingredients: ¾ cup of all purpose flour, ¾ cup whole wheat flour, 4 tbs unsweetened cocoa powder, ½ tsp of baking powder, 1/8 tsp salt, ½ plus ¼ cup of margarine softened, ½ cup of vegetable shortening, ½ cup of packed brown sugar, 1 cup of old fashioned rolled oats, ¼ cup of light corn syrup dissolved in 1 tbs boiling water, 1 cup of confectioner's sugar, and ½ tsp of pure vanilla extract. 1) Pre heat the oven to 350 degrees. 2) Butter the cookie sheets with cooking spray. Mix together the flours, 2 tbs cocoa powder, baking powder and salt in a medium bowl. 3) Beat ½ cup of the margarine, all the shortening, and all the sugar in a large bowl with a mixer until creamy. 4) Mix in the dry ingredients. Stir in the oats and corn syrup. Form balls the size of walnuts with the dough and place 1 inch apart of the cookie sheets. Flatten slightly. 5) Bake for 20 minutes until firm to touch. Replacement to wire racks. Then beat the remaining margarine, confectioner's sugar, remaining cocoa powder, and vanilla until creamy. Stick the cookies together in pairs with the chocolate filling. 6) Enjoy all the happiness and yumminess rushing in. * Base of formula from Cookies and then I molded it from there. Cookies of the Soul - Chocolate Cream Kisses and a insight Related articles: |
Tuesday, January 10, 2012
Cookies of the Soul - Chocolate Cream Kisses and a insight
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